Whippany, NJ

Good is good, great is great and then there is amazing. That is the feeling I had this weekend. Daddy and I had so much fun together. We talked, we laughed, and we ate. We understand one another, we appreciate one another. We learned from one another. When he talks I listen and learn. I respect his mind, his thoughts. Thinking of him now puts a smile on my face.
I trust him with all of me. Mind soul and body. My body Mmm Mmm Mmm. Daddy made my body experience pleasures I never have and never thought I could reach. (sigh) I wish daddy's hands were on my body right now. Got to stay focused. Daddy took care of me. I wanted to please daddy and make him proud of me. Whatever daddy's desires were I fulfilled them when he allowed me too. My toes are curling right now from the memories. (deep exhale)
I want to make sure daddy has and is taken care of. I want daddy to be happy so much that when I took a shower I dried my body with a small hand towel so that my daddy could have the last large one. I don't think he knew all of that but he knows now once he reads this.
I was sad when it was time for me to leave, knowing I would not be able to give daddy ALL of me. My body longs to fulfill all of daddy's desires til the next time that I see him. I hope real soon but until then he has my mind and soul.
One more thing. Where the hell is Whippany, New Jersey. LOL I'll never forget it.

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Friday, October 22, 2010

This date, this stamp in time will be remembered.  This is the day that I have been waiting for the past few weeks.  Today I am meeting the man that I am giving myself to.  The man that I trust with my fears and insecurities.

Today is the beginning of my weekend training. This weekend I will open up and be myself completely. I will be humble and I am ready to learn and grow with my Dom.

It feels like such a long wait but patience was necessary.  I’m like a new college student ready to learn and looking forward to the experiences that await me.  I am so excited to finally see him, feel him.  To hear his voice and watch his lips move as the words come out. To put a smile on his face because he likes what he sees in front of him.  I feel like I am being reunited with a loved one that I lost connection with in the past and I am eager to start over and rebuild.

I want to get a better understanding of this lifestyle and be able to put all my readings into perspective and relate with my own experiences which I will later share.

Although I may not get an answer so soon; I want to understand the reason for our connection and our overall purpose for coming together.

My readings

So before our demise my Dom asked me to post a blog about my readings and thoughts on BDSM.

The readings that my Dom sent to me were intriguing. The first site He sent to me was an introduction of BDSM, and the question was asked can you be a sub. Although my interest was sparked by this new discovery I wasn't sure if I had what it took to be submissive but I was hoping that I did. After reading through the submissive creed and 100 rules of a submissive I wanted more. My hunger for more knowledge increased. I wanted to learn more and experience.
Soulcast.com was my next reading. At first when I read the blog of a sub being whored out to her Doms friend I was so scared for her. Then I remembered that a patient, caring, and gentle Dom would never put his sub in harms way. My mind was at ease when I realized the connection and trust between the Dom and his sub. I was glad that she was able to please her Dom and wanted to establish a bond like one they had.
After reading a friends blog I felt happiness, love, and joy. Never once did I feel scared or fear from the few blogs that I read. I felt like I could relate to her with my family and work life. My mind was at ease knowing that I could have similar experiences and stories as she did. My mind was at ease and I was ready and willing to submit.

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