Lacking something but I can't quite put my finger on it.

Hmmm.

So frustrated

Feeing so disconnected.

Sitting here wondering how someone with a family as large as mines can feel alone.

Wanting the closeness of family.

I really need to meditate and rid myself of these negative thoughts.

Uncertainty, self-doubt, insecurity, rejection, failure,....

I just want to be at peace and not easily irritated. 

Life! 

Thoughts

It's not a secret that Scorpio has trust issues. Just don't want it to be what ruins them.

I awoke feeling like it was all a dream...

Conversation muted. He silently came into the room and greeted me with a kiss.   Although not fully awake, naturally I surrendered fully to Him. Savory, juicy, wet kisses. He gently devoured my lips and it felt like perfection. Feeling Him devour my other lips felt as equally perfect. Wow! What a fantasy, it feels so real. I continue to comply with His whispered demands. Giving myself completely. To Him. For Him. Begging for more of Him and His touch. Desiring to lay with Him and stroke His hair.....wake up and do it all over again. But when I woke up there was no do over this time.

It was a dream. Like that good dream that when you open your eyes, you try to force yourself back to sleep to be continued from where you left off. Hours later, that is how I am currently. Trying to daydream and taste Him on my tongue.  Feeling Him on and in my body. His body/His property. 

If not tonight, this Will be continued. Sweet perfection!

Two Hour Delay Fantasies

I would roll around in bed and watch you setup and log on. I would wait for you to go in the bathroom and I would change my clothes like a ninja. Make sure you don't see me slip into something sexier. Perhaps some thigh highs that cuff my butt. 

I'd slide back under the covers and wait for you to come out. I'd be patient until you got back on the bed and got comfortable. After watching and enjoying how sexy you are, I would nonchalantly get out of bed. I would stop in front of the mirror and play with my hair and check to see if you were checking out my body. I want to look in the mirror and see your eyes distracted from your screen and on me. But I wouldn't let you know. I'd hold a casual conversation. Making sure you didn't need or want anything from the kitchen. 

I would then ease onto the bottom of the bed and rub your legs and feet. I would position myself so that my round ass was facing you. I would be quiet and let you work while I work my hands up and down your feet, legs, and thighs. 

In order for me to get to those hard to reach spots I would change my position and bend my ass up into the air. I want you to have thoughts of "gotta get this work done" and also to think this chocolate ass needs some cream on top.

I would leave you alone and let you get back to work and I would get back on my side of the bed. I would lay there with my back and ass facing you. Giving you the option to watch me or the screen. I'd let you get complete focus on work before I put my hands on you again. This time I'm kneeling beside you and kissing on you. In my eyes I'm begging for you to move your laptop up to give me access to your cock so that I can play with him and use my tongue to make him jump (which you allow). I would stroke you and suck your balls while you continued to do your work. My challenge would be to see how long before you put your hands on me. I would prefer that they were inside of me but not quite yet; you have work to do. So I would stop pleasing you and go back to rubbing and massaging your feet, legs, and thighs. On repeat.

Single parent thoughts

Many times I think that the logical thing would be to focus on MYSELF when I'm in my 40's and my kids are grown.