I have been feeling unattractive 

PMS thoughts

Is it bad that I want to disassociate myself from this. Whatever this is. What is this. I don't like it. I don't want it.

I need a vacation but I doubt that will happen this year. Maybe 2014 😕😒😔

Thoughts

I want so much better; I want so much more. I need to obtain it. I have to keep striving 

Confession: trust is powerful. I trust everyone to be the person that they have shown me. I don't expect anything else. I'll trust a male before I trust a female. At least most men are upfront and disclose what their motives are. Females are sneaky. No one specific just my experience. Always seem to be true. I trust my intuition. 

I think I'll try to blog my confessions if insecurities and jealousies. Negative things that I never shared. Not for drama but to look at it from a positive angle. Well at least I'll try it for the rest of this week, then determine if I wish to continue.

I woke up with him on my mind. Instead of my usual smile from last memories, I felt a sadness. I wish he was here. Together. Comforting each other. 😢