I need a vacation but I doubt that will happen this year. Maybe 2014 😕😒😔

Thoughts

I want so much better; I want so much more. I need to obtain it. I have to keep striving 

Confession: trust is powerful. I trust everyone to be the person that they have shown me. I don't expect anything else. I'll trust a male before I trust a female. At least most men are upfront and disclose what their motives are. Females are sneaky. No one specific just my experience. Always seem to be true. I trust my intuition. 

I think I'll try to blog my confessions if insecurities and jealousies. Negative things that I never shared. Not for drama but to look at it from a positive angle. Well at least I'll try it for the rest of this week, then determine if I wish to continue.

I woke up with him on my mind. Instead of my usual smile from last memories, I felt a sadness. I wish he was here. Together. Comforting each other. 😢

Don't say can't

The place where I am at:

I won't do it.

Ignoring the fact that it's something that I want. Well something that I thought I wanted until my better judgement appeared.

That's when you have to tell yourself not to call for the okie doke. Having your mind trick itself into believing its all good when deep down its all wrong. 

Have to be stronger than that

Continuation

Looking forward to slowly walking back into training with him. I'm ready.