Social media has made me not want to be connected to it anymore. Maybe I need to clean up some more. 

It's not the matter of it boy holding my attention, it just turns me off. 

But since I've really been trying to make an effort to be social....I don't know.

It's kinda like delete yourself and know one will even notice...HA 😕

I always wonder why some folks announce it. Maybe the thought of no one noticing would "rock" their brain.

I suppose...

Trust can be given for different things. "I trust you with...." or "I trust that you.....".

Can you trust someone and still have doubt? Is it fear? Is the mind playing tricks?

A question asked in regards to those I encounter on a routine basis. 

First sub space in 2015

What the cane used to do for me, biting now does. I am left in a state of euphoria.  Feel like I'm in a petal resting, while it slowly descends into still waters. Creating a ripple.

*I feel asleep with the phone in my hand*

Last night, I was so relaxed and calm. He  tended to me and I was in perfect peace. Tender kisses.

I've realized that when I try to move or squirm I'm expecting a harder bite or a pull that sends stronger sensations throughout my body. The nibbles that sting.

*becoming aroused*

It's like He has perfected the art of biting my body and I love it. The pain instantly makes me cry between by legs. 

I wail out for Him to please stop but at the same time I'm holding and cradling His head close to my skin. My hands on the back of His head as if He is in between my legs tasting me and my body is begging Him not to stop. My mouth is saying I can't take any more. Pleasure. All at once. 

..........

My body pressed against His. The perfect moment. The needed aftercare for an amazing experience. I could have melted into Him. His embrace. His love wrapped around me. Kisses. Then goodnight. 

My love for Him almost seems indescribable with words. Saying I love you doesn't hold the same weight as I feel. It's a fraction. I don't want this to be the feeling of the"new stage" but in reality it isn't new. W/we aren't new. As the seasons change W/we become seasoned. More mature in O/our love. Submission is easier 

One day I will fully open up and you will be engulfed in my passion.

-Scorpio Woman

I need to put my Under Construction and to work on some things.  Change the tone.  Instead of always blogging on here when I am upset.  I decided to write those feelings down with pen and paper.  I want to keep this blog focused on experiences, desires, and wants.

Teamwork & Encouragement.

Last Sunday, King and I completed a 5K obstacle mud run.  When King initially told me that He was going to sign up for the race, I was in full support mode.  I wanted to be there on the sidelines cheering Him on and there to congratulate Him for His hard work when he He finished.  When He asked if I would do it with Him, I had thought, that would be an even better opportunity to support Him.  By His Side!

I wanted us to be both mentally and physically ready to tackle this challenge together.  I admit, I did not know what to expect during this obstacle run.  I knew that I didn't want to get muddy but that was minor in comparison to the other challenges listed in the race.

Leading up to the event, I was so proud that King had taken the initiative to search out and sign up for the mud run.  It showed me a lot of things in regards to His openness to try new things, steps to better health, and His determination to get it done by sticking to His word. 

We had a few goals; complete the race, with no injuries, within an hour.  Boo-Yow! We accomplished them all!

I didn't anticipate so much running.  I wasn't ready for all of that but I am glad that King kept me motivated in the first leg of the run.  He continued to talk with me so that I could push myself to jog and not fall back on walking like I normally do.  I think I was ready to say forget this until we got to the first water station.  Somewhere after that, I was able to get a boost and find a place of comfort to go with a stride.  The obstacles were pretty decent for us both and I am sure that it was the running portion that kicked our butts. 

I liked our teamwork together and how we motivated each other throughout the run.  We never left the other too far behind and waited for one another after each obstacle.  Our goal for next year is to finish within 45 minutes of completion. So we have to physically train and push through mental barriers that may exist.