I'm starting to not want to do this anymore. 

I've been bothered.

I think I'm a pretty cool person and put in a lot of effort to socialize and meet and greet. Talk to new folks or whatever. 

I feel like I'm standing on the sidewalk staring in. Shit sucks majorly. Like what's the point of me going to these lifestyle gatherings. 

What's the point of you can't socialize and have discussions with like-minded individuals and live a closet life around the clock.