Everyone Has A Limit

You left nothing but space and opportunity. Unprotected, open, and alone. Now I'm gone.

An Uhappy Woman 1 of 3

In the beinning I was a woman with sexual desires that were surpressed.  Trying to fit the mold of a traditional wife do things that I thought were EXPECTED and ignored my wants.  Unhappy!  In the beginning I was a woman that was bored, unsatisfied, and felt incomplete.  Worried about what others thought feeling pressured to uphold the image of the model "black love" family all my friends envied.  Perfect picture fraternity guy marries sorority lady, house, careers, two kids, and don't forget the dog.  What more could you ask for? Happiness! Completeness! More! Something was missing.  When the unhappiness set in the bitterness and the lack of interest grew.  Still I struggled with worrying about what everyone else would say.  So I stayed.  Then one day it all came to a head.  The bitterness ended.  The lack of interest was redirected.  BDsM. Captured my mind. 
And then I made the choice to walk down a different path leaving the vanilla world behind.  Beginning anew with Him.

Vanilla

Regular sex is so boring to me. I can not have sex and enjoy it as much as I used to. I can't even masturbate and cum anymore it takes forever. Don't know if this is good or bad but at the moment I am thinking it is ALL bad. If I train and plug my ass and masturbate I can cum in less than a minute. Being spanked before or during sex heightens me. Being choked, hair pulled, and of course plugged while being fucked drives me insane. I fantasize having a knife being dragged down from my neck, over my breasts, across my abdomen, and down to my pussy. Being on my knees while being slowly fucked and feeling a knife glide between my shoulder blades then across my ass. I told Master that I would like to be blindfolded so that I could not anticipate what He would do to me. Actually seeing what is coming...that fear would get my heart racing. Tied up and FORCED to take it all no running; only tears running down my face. Pure ecstasy.*SIGH* I need this. "No sex is required"! I need to be an obedient bitch. I need to be humiliated and controlled. Mentally in awe. This it what gets me going. This it what gets ME wet. This is what gets my cum trail dripping down to my ass. But anyway, this plain Jane sex isn't doing it for me anymore. I mean of course I enjoy sex but afterwards my body feels neglected. My body feels like saying "push me to my limits" and "don't stop". To be fully satisfied my body needs the above as a minimum. Regular sex is boring it is just not enough. My body wants more and moRE and mORE and MORE!

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