My First Time

When He grabbed me and whispered in my ear what He was going to do to me, my eyes widened and all I could say was yes Daddy. I knew it was coming but I was not expecting Him to remind me of all the punishments past I was going to get.
Silly of me to think Master lead me into the bathroom to shower away the dirt from my long bus ride. Now I know with water comes wet skin and even after I dry off my skin is still damp. Perfect skin for a good caning.
BASTINADO, I do not like but I deserve it. Deserve it for acting like I was in control. Only a few licks and feeling the rope tighten and pulled around my neck were enough for me to get my shit together. A few licks was what I needed to get my mind right get my breathing together and focus less on the pain and more on what I was told to do. In and out of focus I buried my head in the bed and gripped the sheets. As I opened my eyes and turned my head everything changed. At that moment I felt like a beast, His beast. Being an obedient pet obeying His command. Listening to His voice as I was told, complying, not moving from my position. With each hit I stared at how beautiful He was. How hard He was and how much He leaked. With each hit I saw that He liked and my mouth began to water. He fed His pet while continuously caning her. I heard it, I felt it, my body accepted it. I wanted my flesh to bleed. I wanted to open my legs and feel a strike against my pussy. I didn't want Him to stop but He did. My ass was on fire and I felt the heat even more when the blows began to come from His hand.(I want to cum right now). I never felt this before. I felt like I was watching myself. I felt the hits but the pain didn't bother me. I was just hungry and I continued to enjoy all that He was giving and I enjoyed it. I thanked Him for getting me to this point.
Now that was the short story to my first time reaching subspace.
Through Him I grow He is my sculptor and has the best in mind for me. He says I am His queen but yet I feel I have much more to work towards before I can be crowned. Every queen is beside her king. Every slave kneels by their Master. Every woman is the support for her man. Greatness is what I seek and the path of enlightenment is what I pursue. Growth is what we all need. I have grown, He has grown, W/we have grown together and I wouldn't want it any other way.

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Only 186 miles away

Laying in this KING sized bed sometimes I feel so alone. As long as I keep my eyes closed and the memories flowing I will be alright. You have my spirit and my mind. Yes the first thought when I rise and the last thought before I go to sleep. My dreams are filled with You even the ones I don’t remember. Nothing tangible for me to squeeze or caress. Just the last touch, the last kiss, the last spanking, and tug of my hair. The last word spoken always is you. The last embrace, the last whiff of You. I hold onto it all. On nights like this when I wish…You come to me traveling ∞ speeds on a breeze then get to my window and slooowly drift by me. I take You all in. I remember. I remember that next time I will store all these moments in my chestbox of treasures to pull out on nights like this.

How I Feel

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Which path is next

I want more...to be continued

When I close my eyes all I see is you. I stayed awake and all I thought about was you. Tonight I will try and get some sleep but I want you to stay in my mind.

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Asking for it

All I had to do was listen but being the greedy slut that I am I couldn't resist. Master gave me simple instructions "Go to sleep with this dick in your mouth". Thirty minutes later my ass was gagging and choking on the rice I ate earlier. I wanted to be used I wanted to taste all of Him I could have controlled my tongue but I didn't want to. I wanted Him to grab a fistful of hair and fuck my face to the point my tears dripped into my lap. I wanted Him to take His holes and use them at His will. Yeah my ass was stinging from being a disobedient little cunt but my pussy was wet from having His hands on me. That was the hardest spanking I recall ever getting. I fucking loved it. I'm horny right now *pokes out lips*.

It is already written

I believe everything happens for a reason and some days I think that the divine plan already has order and we are just minions living out the story that is already written. Either way, I feel that He was placed in my life at a time when the story was due to change. At a time when I was ready and realized, understood, and accepted that I should live my life based on my happiness and not trying to make everyone else happy while neglecting my own feelings.
I'm wondering if He came earlier would my curiosity been enough to coax my willingness. If He came later would I have been a bitter woman blind to her own blessings.
Not far from a year and I have grown in many ways. From Him and through Him I gained the knowledge that I needed. Received the information that inspired me and sparked me to do things that I didn't have the knowledge to do. Driven me to continue to learn and use my resources for continued advancement.
"In the beginning" I told Him that W/we are in each others lives for a reason. I still don't know what that reason is but the journey to that realization is precious and I cherish every moment.

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