I feel what He sees

Kneeling in front of Him looking down. I feel His eyes on me. His slave. Just waiting.
He brushes my hair back with His hand.
I feel beautiful.

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Fuck! (your ass is grass)

I forgot my bag yesterday and as soon as I realized what I had done I looked at Master and let the words out. What bag He asked *silence*
I'm really stuck on stupid and I keep thinking about that cane in the car. At this point I can't even hold a conversation all I can say is I can't believe I forgot my bag. The bag I've been carrying with me everywhere I go for the past seven months with all the items Master tells me to put in it, dildos, plugs, pins, bullets, everything. Of all days to forget, I forget when Master arrives. No excuses;I don't even have one.
Trying not to think of what Master has in store for me is real hard. It doesn't matter at this point. I deserve it. I deserve to be punished for forgetting and for having so much time in between the last time Master saw me. My mind is racing trying to figure out if He will take it easy on me since it is my first time. It's been a few weeks since the the last time I was punished but then I remembered, there is no way I will ever forget those rubber bands.

He keeps smiling but I already know. *nervous grin*

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Inside Joke

Driving to work and I saw a guy walking down the street. He had a macho walk but it didn't seem natural. It seemed like he was forcing to walk a certain way to be perceived by others that he is a tough guy. I don't know. Well regardless if he is or isn't analyzing his walk made me think of Master and how He walks. I have the biggest cheesy ass smile on my face right now. I'm smiling because of the thoughts that I have when I am walking behind Master. I'm watching. I'm analyzing. His walk. His movements. Last week I was laying there watching Him and Master asked what I was doing and I said watching You. When I watch and focus on the way He walks all the nasty thoughts come flooding into my head. Im so bad *chuckles*. I guess that is my little inside thought (joke) that I will keep to myself :D

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Just The Two Of U/us

So change of plans Master gave me an option and I wanted to go home. So home I went and I am glad because I have no idea what W/we would have done here.
Pulled out first thing in the morning flew up the road no traffic no cops good music. Now that is my kind of road trip.
I get home and I'm like damn I can't wear my cute shoes I have on. Unless I want to bust my ass on the icy ass sidewalks I have to put on some LOWER heels :( but safety first. Soon as I got out the car I was quick to change them when the snow hit my suede so I wasn't sad for too long.
Master said W/we were hitting the city He was taking me out to see the city no driving; catch the train like a New Yorker. Off W/we went, walking and talking to the subway. New York train system is so complex nothing like the Metro here. Metro is so tourist friendly. I would have got lost on NY subway if I attempted to ride by myself.
W/we rode, chatted, snuggled for what seemed like forever. I don't know what I was in a hurry for because soon as W/we came out the subway WHAM! it was cold as shit. Master showed me the heart of Manhattan. It felt so good walking with Him like that is where I belonged. Walking with an invisible leash. Paying attention for His hand gestures and direction without Him speaking a word. That made me feel like a good slave to not miss anything.
Master took me to get something to eat where I ate sushi for the first time. Yummy yummy yummy. Everything was good even the eel that Master fed me. I sat there stealing glimpses into His eyes eventhough I shouldn't have. And then W/we stared into each others eyes for what seemed like forever. His beautiful eyes :) That very moment gives me shivers whenever I think about it. Out of the whole day I had the most fun here bonding with him.
So of course like a little bird I couldn't eat all my food. I'm so damn wasteful smh. Well anyway back in the cold and off to the movie theatre to see the Green Hornet. W/we chilled before the movie started. He always make me smile with everything He says or does. Oh by the way great movie.
Late that evening I experienced yet another great; when Master undressed me. On the ride up I was imagining Him ripping the damn thing off of me. Instead He kissed me, stood me up, and S L O W L Y slid the negligee' down my skin. Mmmm. *slowly exhales*. While with Him I tried to make up for all the weeks that W/we were apart. I have been working out so my stamina has increased. My thighs weren't burning and I felt like I could keep going and going like an energizer bunny. Feeling Master's hands on my ass as He spanked me was sooo....let's just say I really needed that. Watching my ass jiggle after every hit made me smile and want more.
I was hungry to have Master's cock and balls in my mouth. Tasting Him as I let his nut fall from my mouth and run down over my breasts. I was even more hungry to taste the thick load Master put on the side of my face. The way He held my head down and painted my nose, cheek, and chin. I wished my tongue was long enough to wrap around and taste His nectar. Instead I used my hand and tasted Yummy.
Bent the Fuck over I felt Master training my ass stretching her out. Damn I got sore too fast haven't been training my ass all week:( only liquid training. I got to do better stop running. I know if Master had tied me down I would have took it all. No excuses.
I don't even remember how many times W/we came. I didn't want to stop but I had to force myself to take a nap so I wouldn't be tired coming back down the highway.
As always I NEVER want to leave. I was trying to hold off from giving Master a kiss goodbye so that I could squeeze a couple more minutes out of the visit. That didn't work.
Looking at the calendar I want to see Master ASAP or when ever He says its okay.*sighs* schedules schedules schedules
Til next time.

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No words

I am so busy at work right now but hey, when am I never busy.  I have to make this diary entry like right now.

I’m sitting here on the toilet at work lubed up pushing my plug in my ass and texting Daddy.  Yes I can multi-task.  And then it happened.  But first let me explain this Evo phone, when you receive a text message only the first line comes across your screen and you have to open the inbox to read the rest of the message.  So when I see “It has been a pleasure” my mind started racing I immediately started to think OMG it’s been a pleasure BUT.  You know what that but means I don’t even have to explain what bad things are said after but.  Wait a minute there was no BUT, my mind is moving to fast.  I slow down and open the inbox and read the rest of the message.  I feel the tears form behind my eyes.  I take deep breaths and continue reading.  While sitting here holding my phone in one hand and my plug in the other I noticed my hands were shaking.  I am really emotional right now but this is good.  I smile.

I can hardly wait till the next time my Master asks for me to come back up to Him.  Yes, I said Master. <bites bottom lip, tears>  I am still shaking, I can feel my heart through my chest.  I can’t believe my body is reacting like this.  I can’t even explain, there are no words to explain.  Just facial expressions, tears, and shaky hands. 

I push the plug, in send my Master a pic and go to my desk to let my emotions take over.