Closes pins, lube, vibrator, anal plug Oh My! (Day 1)

To continue with my training Daddy said I could pick up some clothes pins and work my way up to binder clips. Yes, thank you again Daddy. Mmm I'm getting moist just thinking of this experience and writing this blog.
The first night I knew what to do...Damn I'm so horny right now. Have to stay focused...okay. The first night I knew that Daddy wanted me to put the pins on my breast my pussy lips and clit. When I was ready for my training I text Daddy to let Him know. Then I began squeezing and twisting my nipples preparing myself to put the pins on. There goes that dripping again O_o. CLIP! I close my eyes took a deep breath and put the other pin on CLIP! I took a picture to send to Daddy to show Him that I had the clips on. SNAP!
Now at my house I have sliding shower doors so I have better view of what I am doing while I complete my task. I sit on the stool and open my legs wide...wait...let me grab my plug I know Daddy will like that. Mmm and so will I. My ass is already open since I wore my plug the majority of the day at work. Lube it up slide it right in. Bounce on my stool to make sure it is all the way in and doesn't come out. I like to grind on my plug it feels so gooood.
Time to put the pins on these pussy lips. CLIP! CLIP! CLIP! CLIP! Yeah I used four, I want to put more but I don't have a mammoth size pussy. My kitty is cute and petite. LOL. Grind on the plug, Mmmm. Time to put the clothes pin on my clit. Take deep breath and CLIP! Pinch on that clit just like Daddy wants.
Look at that art. SNAP, SNAP, SNAP. I know Daddy will like these pics.
Know would you look at that...a cum river flows.

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DRIP DRIP DRIP! CLIP CLIP CLIP! BREATH BREATH BREATH! KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK!

Last night was one of the the trainings that I had to move slowly and really get my mind set right.  I had to practice my breathing.  My Dom wanted me to continue with my clips and double penetration training. 

While visting my aunt I sent Daddy a text to let Him know that I was thinking about Him.  He asked if I had my clips and I told Him that yes I had my bag.  I listened and grabbed my bag and went into the bathroom ready to conquer my task.  As instructed I began massaging my nipples and they started to leak, drip drip drip. I kept massaging and my left nipple squirted me in the eye.  O-kay. CLIP! On goes the binder clip.  I felt the pain but it was easy to focus off of the pain.  Now came the time to put the clips onto my vagina. Clipping my vulva and labia together. Put one clip on, took it back off.  BREATH. Put one clip on, took it back off.  The entire time I'm texting my Dom letting him know exactly what I am doing.  I think He was upset with me because I kept taking the clips off. But with His help and His words I was able to focus and get my mind in a place that it needed to be.  Put one clip on. CLIP!  Now the other CLIP!  I feel tightness, my skin around my clit is pulled so much my clit is tingling.  My legs are shaking, I'm breathing...what am I doing lamas.  This isn't labor I've been through labor twice. I can do this.  Breath, Breath, Breath. Grabs phone.  I begin to rub on my clit.  Mmmmm, all pain immediately left my mind.  this feels SO GOOD.  Deep Exhale.. KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK! someone has to use the bathroom  <squeech> 

...........TO BE CONTINUED

my Purpose

my Dom if i could give Him everthing i would.  i want to make His dreams come ture, His fantasies a relaity, His wishes a memory that He would continue to replay in His mind.  i feel like singing Luther Vandross right now and telling Him "if this world were mine". It hurts when i can't be there to satify His every need.  sometimes i feel like a useless sub like wut is my purpose if i cant b there to satisfy His desires.  i don't like this feeling.  i know that He doesn't think this way but i'm just venting. i'm just feeling worthless at the moment.  i'll get over it.  As soon as i receive praise from my obedience or completing a task for Daddy i will fill up with joy. i try to think of different ways that i can satisfy him other than sexually. my mind (my intellect), my spirit (caring), my conversation (connection). Daddy said that he wanted to see me once a month, it's only the middle of November and I have seen Him twice so far and still i feel like that is not enough.  Ugh!!  i don't know if i want to cry or slap myself for not living closer but its really not my fault. i just have to deal and not be so hard on myself.  technology sure makes things a lot better. Thank goodness for webcams.  well my work day is almost over perhaps when i'm in a better mood i can share my weekend and meeting my sub sister.  Till next time....

Anal Plugs 11/7/2010

My newest task Mmm. What joys I had in one night. At first I was unsuccessful and made a few attempts to get it in but once I did it was no turning back. I'm thinking I should have brought a dildo cause I was trying to ride that plug with no real success. However winding and moving on that bad boy had my pussy leaking so bad. I wanted to grab the vibrator but Daddy said I couldn't so I just patted Ms.Kitty to calm her down. I completely lost track of time. I wanted to fuck my ass so much I tried to sit in the dining room chair unsuccessful. Fancy ass chair was too soft. Got damn it. Back upstairs I go plug in my ass. Headed right back to my bed where I pushed and fucked. My Dom sent me a text saying I better practice. Oh shit I can't stop I want this hole to be open enough for Daddy, for me to ride on his dick. Now I'm thinking I should have got a bigger one. Fuck. Keep working, working, and working it. Oohdamn.

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Not Enough (11/5/2010)

I had fun this weekend, matter fact I have remnants of a hangover. Let's see where to start.

Saw For Colored Girls with my inlaws. Great movie a must see. I was really missing Daddy and was texting Him till the lights went off. I couldn't stop thinking of Him and it didn't help that the movie was based in NY. So yeah, I thought of my Dom throughout the entire movie.

I think every one has a freak in them it just has to be let out. Now my husband supposed to be showing his freaky side. He decides to take me to a lifestyle/social club. We had fun but again I don't know how many times I thought of Daddy last night jus wishing I cud have been there wit him instead. He kept trying to push me on to other girls in the club. These chicks kept grabbing on my ass saying how they wanted me. What the fuck!! I'm not gonna be with abybody unless my Daddy knows bout it. He picks my girls.

So naturally I was horny and just had to feel the sensation. Daddy said I could cum only if my husband made me. Last night my main goal was for him to bust a nut before me. Mission accomplished time to go home. I'm saving my O for Daddy. I want to bust on Him and see the rainbow.
All in all the club was a nice experience. I wouldn't mind going back though just to have something to do. I just think those broads were on me because I was a newbie.
Sigh,I miss Daddy so much maybe we will go out the next time I go see Him and I can REALLY enjoy myself. Just going out and having fun was just not enough for me. I was not completely satisfied. After all the excitement wore off I just wanted more. I just wanted my Daddy.
After reading this blog i realized my thoughts are all over the place. I'm going to post it anyway.

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A Good Day

Just sitting here thinking about my Dom.  Thinking about how much i appreciate Him and care about Him.  Today ended up being a good day.  i struggled through the early hours because ms. kitty wanted to get out of control but after talking to Daddy, i meditated, took a walk and was at peace.  The rest of the day flew right on by.  Tonight i will go to the gym and work out and do some cardio, practice on some breathing techniques.  i'm not going to over strain myself just starting out but i do want to get to get into a routine and become consistent with just going.  Gotta work of the rest of this baby weight and tighten it up.  i'm also gonna have to hit my (sub) sister up to see how her day went.  i am really at peace right now and i want this feeling to last for the rest of the day when i get home with the fam.  Let's see.

Sad Little Puppy

i am feeling so blah right now.  2 days ago i was on top of the world now i am just here.  Things were a lot easier when my husband didn’t care one bit what i did or where i was going.  Now that he knows what i want he is acting like I-spy or some shit.  i just want to do me but i guess that is not what marriage is about. i didn’t think in a marriage i would be so sexually deprived. 

i want sooo much to just be with my Daddy and to be everything for Him. i don’t want Him to want for anything.  It kills me knowing that i cant be there at his call.  When Daddy told me He needed me i jumped on the highway to go see him.  i just wanted to suck and drain all the nut out and leave his scrotum empty.  i was mad at myself for not doing my training and caused myself to be on punishment.  Because i was on punishment i couldn’t sit on Daddy’s dick and get ALL His cum out.  If i had been a good girl i would have been able to take care of Him when He needed me but we both knew that if He was inside me i would have came and He could not go back on His word and let me off punishment.  i learned my lesson i won’t go off training again.  i’ve been holding this nut for days now and i can’t wait till this week is up.    Gosh i’m gonna fuck the shit out my toy, i swear i hope i don’t break it. 

Damn i wanted to cum this morning.  My husband got lucky, i was actually into him n wanted him to touch me. Why couldn’t he succeed and get this nut out (why did i even bother). i’m gonna hit that gym hard today. i’m gonna have to throw myself into my work to keep my mind of my pussy. (sigh) just writing this blog is making my pussy throb more and more. i'm still counting down the days.