With You W/we can Tak3over

Laying in my bed just thinking now what am I supposed to do. What am I supposed to do? I feel like I should be serving, getting a meal, a drink, cleaning, or something. I am happy at how I spent my four day weekend but at the same time want to cry because it is over. I wish this weekend could have been like that movie "Groundhog Day" where it constantly repeated and never ended. Everyday I could wake up and watch Him sleep or wake up to His eyes on me. Kind of feel like I set myself up got spoiled and now I'm going through withdrawals of being near Him..............okay I'm done crying now :) I feel better. Guess I had to get it out.
This weekend was so wonderful. There aren't too many people I can spend ALL day and ALL night without them getting on my nerves or boring me. I never felt like that with Him during these past days. I mean literally where He went I went except when He was working I kinda stayed in the park and did my own thing. Took some pics of my nipples from the cold air and just relaxed. Being around someone for 24 hours and enjoy every minute is amazing.
One of the thing that stuck out the most this weekend was walking down the street. I felt like W/we were radiating or glowing and I sensed people stopping what they were doing and staring at U/us. I mean it could have just been me but I am going to ask Master if He noticed it too.
Especially after His photo shoot W/we walked hand in hand thru Chinatown He led and I followed. I felt so strong and powerful. As W/we walked it felt like everyone was in slow mo and were getting in our way. It still seeemed as if everyone was staring at U/us. Like Master and I had that Bruce Leroy gold glow :p and everyone wanted a part if it, Idk. Seriously it was just amazing and I haven't felt this before walking with Him but I felt it everytime W/we went out and walked this weekend.
#NP Tony Terry - With You

P.S. Master's walk - I love it ;)
Beside every strong man is a strong woman.
Beneath every wonderful respected Master is an obedient slave

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*Aw hell I can't think of a title*

:-/ this is so out of the norm I hope everything is okay. I lost track of the hours He last texted me. I'm starting to get a little nervous cuz it just so happens the topic of discussion today in FL submissive groups were "getting over a Master" or someone saying "I was just released". Now my mind is trying to skip all over the place but I've been good at staying calm and not jumping to conclusions. Just thoughts that entered my head tho. I pushed them out I don't want to think like that or let negativity creep in. I'm just remaining patient. I think the more time I say I'm being patient I add on another hour of actually practicing it. So I'm doing good. To top it all off not a damn person text me today made the day go super slow. I wonder what sis is doing haven't text her in a while. She is so busy, no point in bothering her she prolly working. I'll just let everyone have space. I suppose folks will hit me up when they have time. I guess or am I always initiating the convos. Idk. Where is my bff, Geeze! Where is this blog going. I'm rambling now. Okay good night.
P.S. by the time I submit this blog it will be 15hrs and 15 minutes since He last talked to me. I didn't forget I just didn't want to seem crazy for knowing the exact time but I don't care. I miss Him. Shucks.

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Growing

I know myself very well. I can tell that I have improved in my patience. I am patiently waiting to hear back from Him. Before I would have broke down by now. I am growing, getting better, and improving myself. This is good.

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In Perfect Harmony

Sitting here in my own juices. Still hearing the bumble bees. I was in sync with them. Yes it was beautiful. The harmony of the buzz in the background and my falsetto ringing then dropping down two octaves to an alto. Yeeesss! I love my toys.
Thank You Master

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Drained

I am tired. I am not complaining I just want to relax and have a spa day but everytime my phone goes off from another person that I luv dearly who needs comfort or help. I want to be taken care of at this very moment. Do nothing, no picking ppl up, visiting hospitals, going to funerals, being a listening ear, etc. Nothing for one day.
Just one day where I can sleep wake up and my toes and nails are polished and my hair is done for me. Wake up and have my meals waiting for me. Mmm some fresh fruit for breakfast. Wait a minute didn't mothers day just pass? Oh I was serving my mom, still running around never rest.
Friday is Sunday and I'm still tired did nothing yesterday but again yet to help ppl. I'm drained. Guess I'll just go drink some coconut water

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Still Practicing

I squirted like five times last night. That is all I just wanted to share :-D

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Empathy

I feel what He feels. Eventhough I can't completely feel what He feels today, I do feel some type of way.

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I feel what He sees

Kneeling in front of Him looking down. I feel His eyes on me. His slave. Just waiting.
He brushes my hair back with His hand.
I feel beautiful.

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Punishment

Well day 3 and my ass is still sore. I deserve to feel more pain than what I am feeling but the memory is still there.

...I controlled my breathing like I had been training and I don't know how many strikes later I felt a gush of wetness between my legs. At that moment each lick was pleasurable until I lost my focus and the pain was there again. Thinking about the pleasure makes my pussy tingle.

It hurt at first but I think my anticipation and not knowing how much I could take made it worst. What really made it worst was running. When Master bound me with that pretty red rope I didn't run, I couldn't. Tight around my neck I couldn't go nowhere. Black bitch widening His hole making me take it.
Being bound excited me more and when the cane met my skin my body responded as if I was being fucked. My pussy was soaked. I lost my focus and started thinking how wet my pussy was and then I felt the pain again.
I wanted to make Master happy and stop squirming and just take it. Accept my punishment.
Thank You.

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Fuck! (your ass is grass)

I forgot my bag yesterday and as soon as I realized what I had done I looked at Master and let the words out. What bag He asked *silence*
I'm really stuck on stupid and I keep thinking about that cane in the car. At this point I can't even hold a conversation all I can say is I can't believe I forgot my bag. The bag I've been carrying with me everywhere I go for the past seven months with all the items Master tells me to put in it, dildos, plugs, pins, bullets, everything. Of all days to forget, I forget when Master arrives. No excuses;I don't even have one.
Trying not to think of what Master has in store for me is real hard. It doesn't matter at this point. I deserve it. I deserve to be punished for forgetting and for having so much time in between the last time Master saw me. My mind is racing trying to figure out if He will take it easy on me since it is my first time. It's been a few weeks since the the last time I was punished but then I remembered, there is no way I will ever forget those rubber bands.

He keeps smiling but I already know. *nervous grin*

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Getting back to work

Today was good. Yesterday I expressed to Master my thoughts and the reasons why I thought I was all over the place. Fact is I have work to do but talking about it made me feel better. So today I actually got some work done instead of texting ALL day. I did text a bit but I kept my hands on the keyboard majority of the time :) I just have to break this text-habit.
I like how I can discuss anything with Master about how I am feeling, what I am thinking small or big. Discussing with Him and then seeing things from His point of view always seem so simple and there really was never even a reason for me to act so damn silly; letting my thoughts manifest a whole bunch of nothing.
Work is still crazy but hey...I wasn't thinking about it too much just stayed focused on what I had to do.

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Training/Fisting

I need my ass fucked. I want this cum hole dripping wet so bad my mouth is watering wanting to suck His dick get it nice and wet ready to slide in.
Each time I try to push myself further with my fisting, go deeper. Surprised my nails don't bother me (hmm I need a manicure) anyway I'm loving it. I love the way I feel afterwards I feel like I just want to be used very well offer this hole for His enjoyment.
Two hours later and my pussy is still leaking. Jealous hoe :) Like damn didn't Ms. Kitty just squirt like three times the other day. It's time for my ass to have fun now. Yes!!!

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I think

So I finally figured it out. I think I realized what my problem is. On top of everything going on I realized I hardly talk to Master as much as I used to. That's not the main reason why I've been all over the place but that's a good part of it. I miss Him. O/our conversations throughout the day kinda like stopped but not completely stopped but...oh well I'll just deal with it. Now since I know what was bothering me I can better preoccupy my time. Do some work instead of spacing off all bummed out. I can't even imagine if I didn't talk to Him at all O_O YIKES!! I just stare out my phone like damn, no text. Nothing. Sometimes I just try to apace between the time W/we exchange communication. I need someone to text during the day but everyone is busy or they have boring communication. Ugh!

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On Mute

So much for not writing a blog. I just have a lot if thoughts I want to get out but I can't get my thoughts together to express them correctly and once said you can't takw them back. I keep forgetting things. Simple things, taking vitamins, drinking tea, I hardly eat all my breakfast, snack, or drink enough water. I really don't know what energy I am running off of. I just sit at work dazed mind going 95. I'm trying to figure our what the problem is week 2. Two weeks ago something changed and whatever it was it was a catalyst to all this negative energy surrounding me like black smoke. I don't even smile on the outside to mask what I an feeling anymore. I just said fuck it. I keep reaching for attempts to enjoy myself and have a good time but it is always shirt lived.
Sitting here forcing myself to eat breakfast prolly will just eat toast and eggs nibbled on a piece of pineapple. Not even hungry. I think I'm done.
I just want to turn my cell off and why myself away from the everyone and the world wide web. But I know Master will not be pleased if I disconnect communication with Him. I did that before when I intentionally broke my phone without thinking of the outcome. I was so dramatic*rme*. Now I'm debating with myself if I should turn it off or not. Maybe I'll turn it on silent. Maybe I should leave it in the car. Maybe I should leave it at home for a day. Maybe I should....who am I kidding I won't do any of these things. This sucks my savior to forget everything the gym, I can't go to today cause I have to get a car. I swear I want to be knocked upside my head to forget all of this. Great the thought of being smacked around has my pussy wet :-/

I think I know how she felt :-( is this karma.

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Hmmm idk...

I dont think I should blog until my spirit is in the right place. I have to tackle this negativity. It sucks, I had some good thoughts I wanted to share but I'm not in the right place to write them.

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I feel so much better. I spent all day car shopping didn't find anything but I am not feeling like a sour puss.
My mind is saying I need to be doing something and my body is telling me that I'm tired. No matter what my body and mind is telling me I'm going to listen to Master because He gave me specific instructions on what to do tonight.
I was thinking positive today and whenever some negativity tried to come into my mind I ninja assassined that shit to non-existence.
Feeling good

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